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Osama bin Laden 3/57 Aries Rooster-- "Self-directed, does not like to be dominated...garrulous in the extreme and busy all the time...getting things done will be the mission of such a person... sex of utmost importance and nature in all its forms will fascinate this bustling soul...Overall they retain a quality of naivete and candor that can prove endearing as long as the new projects they are attacking are neither wars nor domestic crises... witty and fleet of foot and mind, this subject will never be a bore."
George W. Bush 6/46 Dog/Cancer-- "Self-sacrificing for family, job and country...wants to believe in good but something tells him there's a lot of bad out there...may in hermit fashion hole up and allow victories that are rightfully his be won by one less worthy...in love he will realize his talents...in war he will feel too sorry for his enemy to really destroy him...he'd rather use reason than force...there is a well-controlled temper in there, don't tempt him to use it."
Fidel Castro 1927 Cat/Rabbit-- "Even Cats that have risen to positions of extreme power and are famed for their ability to rule entire countries manage somehow to gain the respect of their subject through example. Less squeamish brutes carry out the imprisonments, beatings, and odd hanging. Cats can handle diplomacy, summit conferences, and the establishment of behaviour codes for their peoples. Castro (lawyer) went into the mountains uniformed as a common soldier. When you think about it this kind of pussyfooting makes infinite sense. Wars, enemy occupations, world financial crises, and other such entrenched hardships... cats do not always perform well. He hesitates to give himself over to total commitment for fear the emotional tide may one day turn against him. He invariably prefers to count only on himself for safe harbor. Intrigue only moderately interests Cats. To lend an ear or an hour of time over coffee and cake is one thing, but to be forced to actually testify in favor of a friend who is accused of a crime would not please even the most faithful Cat companions."
Taiwan's President Chen Shuibian and Chinese President Jiang Zemin are both Tigers. "The Rooster, for some reason doesn't tempt the lucky Tiger. Perhaps he is afraid some of those Rooster hard times will rub off on him. Two Tigers will get on like two neighboring houses afire, will exercise a nefarious power on each other. Such mutual destruction through excess is to be avoided like the plague. Dogs make fine allies for Tigers. But they may be mutually blinded by ideals. Political or artistic ventures could go well. But never should a Tiger and Dog go into business together. They can't tell the difference between red and black columns on the ledger. Tigers are so spendthrift and generous they are likely to donate all the Pigs profits to the poor. The angry Tiger will eat the traitorous Monkey for breakfast. Enduring friends with the Cat. Tigers normally do not associate themselves for less than 75% of any profit seeking venture."
-- Suzanne White's Book of Chinese Chance 1976
3/25/01 1 AM PST - reading Sean David Morton's March newsletter on the Year of the Snake and fell into a reverie and saw a picture of a dog (in the hog's territory) holding a boar's right back leg in its jaws. George W. Bush is a Dog. The two leaders of China are Tigers....
4 AM - I wander into an Arab country with tents and sand floors. The cafeteria has an "R" posting on the wall. I'm summoned to see the leader (who I can't see) and my public defender or prosecutor, who escorted me in and carried my luggage stands behind me and throws my luggage as evidence to the leader. It has a tag on it with one of my coworker's name on it. I don't see why they care about an American woman, but maybe they still like fat women there. I keep thinking about the "R" on the cafeteria wall and think maybe the leader has indigestion and wants to be healed. I look at the prosecutor and it's an Iranian guy, Marty, from work wearing his black Italian Mafia looking shirt and he says he's going to strangle me with piano wire (and cut off my head) and I almost pee my pants. I edge towards the tent flap and wonder if I pee on the ground if it will get on my shoes - the sand is hard packed outside. The prosecutor says, "get back here, don't run away." There's a very thin girl with a red face sitting on the floor. I tell her I wish I could run away but another character says, "I'm happy to stand up for what I believe in." I think that my death will lead to the downfall of this tyrant in the long run. At the end of the dream, I almost go in again. There is a sign "Missile Music Man." I hide my three stuffed dogs from his kids, but in the dream they are stuffed elephants. 8 AM - [Week of 3/26/01 Palestinian suicide bombers blew themselves up in Israel.
11/14/98 A black cloud on the horizon. Arabs gallop up on their horses. I tell the group I'm with to give them some eggnog. I train both students to replace me in handshake charts but they probably don't remember how to do it by the next day and will leave before I do. A Christmas party, I'm looking for something to wear. When I come back in the room the tree is up -- all the way to the ceiling, very skinny tree. They decide to move it to a different room, I get a rope -- this will be difficult engineering since it is already decorated and has strings of lights. One woman is sitting at the end of the table with one of each kind of cookie that she gives out. Cars being towed from under the building, three towed. Some are old and don't run, one is metallic blue long old car being towed by a modern convertible. A black guy driving by (I'm painting a picture) flirts with me and when I look up he says, "oh, yuck" and drives into a garage door opening in a big building. I'm an old woman -- 47.
5/20/01 8 of Cups/indolence. Large white rectangular building from an aerial view. Looks like a shoe box. Man with a cane hiking on a path that runs along one side of it. Building appeared in his path. Connection had to be cut because of a consortium of flesh. I am down on the floor behind the couch tracing the line to plug it back in. Sepia color picture. Colonel seizes records, I make a statement to the press. The amount of the lawsuit will tip off authorities and someone could go to jail. Lawsuit filed by young underage college students (boys and girls) against the military. Young redheaded woman seduced by black guy for movie. He embraces her with buldge in his jeans -- she seems to be hypnotized, talks about what he's doing to her in a dispassionate, objective tone of voice. She is afraid of something, being alone. He lies down with her full length on top of him. Then she says, "oh, I boobed you too." She doesn't know it is being filmed, or forgets very fast. After, they all head for their cars. Two girls leaving out a door in the landscape -- garage maybe. I am left in a huge, maybe 50 yard long rectangular room. Man winks at everyone and puts an small Christmas tree in my bathtub or on the toilet tank. 3D Chinese scene of a white building on a dead lawn -- brown grass on a hillside. Or maybe a bare yellow dirt section of Europe such as Spain or Italy. Ttwo aquariums, the water seems to be a few inches low. Then I look again and it's half gone. Then I start to add dry sand from a box and when I get to the bottom of the box it is lined with lobsters and other red tinged sea creatures. I look back at the tank and it is now heaped up over the top with dry sand-- I scoop it out very fast to make sure the fish are okay under there. They have only two inches of water now and when I lean over it and look in there are bullheads I don't really have lying on their backs with their big mouths (teeth) out of the water (they can survive in mud). The faucet, which is hanging from the ceiling, only gives out water in spurts like a penis. It has to rest between. This will take a long time to fill the bucket, the bass is caught in a wire fence along the wall, I think he likes it there and is watching me, but as I watch he goes limp and head and tail droop and he's dead. Voice, good, now more room for the other fish. Voice, "woman without friends." Bell tolls three times, new Lutheran church Story in magazine, History's Mysteries -- someone made dark love to me, gave me a gift. Fan cakes, USA. Jesse comes in and touches my knee and asks if I've read my email -- I don't have to tell people when servers are down anymore -- Roz and Margeaux have to do it. I bowl at the mall in a skirt slit almost to the waist, high heels. There is someone bowling in the next lane and it is "two stories." I walk across the mall again and glide like I'm on roller skates, wonder how I can do it. Will never happen. Going to the grave, three questions: "what is a man, what is life, what is a hug." Cat described as a curb crucifier. Voice asks when I'm going to clear his throat -- means CPR. Wave to the waves if you can't meet demands. Arabs in a jeep --one says he's the future. Other says, what's that to you, Hamal (he's dead). Voice "in a time frame system -- watching Muslims dancing around a fire." Gilda, "she was with shooting occurred" -- picture of her sliding down a gold mine trough -- like water slide, but clay color mud.
2/2/01 Dave 21, long computer files, gate opener on ground, birds eating on ground under tree. List: Shelia, C, gambling, deported. Since
when do you give the carrot credit for speeding -- the craziest. Bass jumps in the air and splashes back in water, splashes it all out, lying on
bare rocks at the bottom. Thinking about an amphibian. Men walking, looking on ground, arms out like airplanes. Voice, you have. Trailer
park -- two managers moving out, I leave the car and walk through the yard of a fast food place that is carpeted with candy, gumdrops, etc. Have to go back and get car to get gas. I'm carrying an armload of clothes and thongs (lost them, barefoot) -- sign, "there is no manager in charge at this time." At the bottom of the hill, I break into the power company to leave the bill -- $10. Bernie walks by in sheer white pants, can see the seams. I open the safe, some locks removed for remodeling. Three holidays in Jan-Feb, Arabs or some group, Our Lady holidays. Now Jesus is younger than Mary, keep all packages.
9/16/01 comments I read last night that a man got in fight with 3 Arabs in a parking lot at the airport and he took police to the car after the bombing. My dream 9/6/01 there was a fight in a parking lot overlooking the downtown of a town with tall buildings--I thought NY or Chicago. Then (I was the terrorist in the dream) I drove out the booth where you pay and the guy handed me one penny, then a handful of pennies. I also had a check--which was navy blue. Then my child's tricycle I was riding took off into the sky and flew above a cloud. I wonder if the terrorists feel like Judas, or if they are thinking of selling bil Ladin for the reward money. Or if the reward is one penny in their eyes ($10M). Some are calling for Islam, Christianity and Judaism to recombine--they are all the same
10/26/01 Page of wands (R) proud, intolerent, coward. 1AM The Republicans and Arabs have to go (loud sound of a paper cutter blade slicing down (Suren said the paper cutter reminded him of Lorena Bobbit cutting off penis). The last time of internment.... Farm prices if not tied to anything will drop. (Railroad stock?) Two things "tied" together...look like white and black rectangular gold bricks....they are wrapped in expensive paper like (Christmas) gifts. Stock market tied to "black money"? Congress is not going to fuck anymore....Or Latin America will fall (alone)....Make them call.....A headline in the CNN News in the internet in the dream--COLD WAR FED BY BFU OR BYU (BYO--Bring Your Own ammunition?)...Coach simply, not verbally--out of the area....renovations (picture of a wire yanked out in the Oval Office (electric or phone wire)....something white crumpled up in a man's hand he can't throw away--a white piece of paper, also looks like white crumpled metal or a white building (Air Force One and White House or white flat top Arab building from previous dreams?)... Everything is closed, as fast as I tell her (Dee's webpage it looks like)....Voice--it says over here, Netscape Error, could not be found--front end premonition or ammunition....may have to fly to Arizona and go to the pizza room (strangled voice)....picuture of Mafia, are low tech and foot soldiers visit each business personally...How you doing, Kid?...Tell her those get here as fast as email. Monday....Stop sending the top dog to Europe (military top dog?--Bush is a Dog)....not wanting to be myself, I'll be some one or I'll beat ya....now is the time to do it--clean window glass, no curtains so everyone can see in--be someone....He'll talk to anyone but you. disaster (picture of Khaki jacket--looks like Quadafi in Libya) supoena, everything is going fine....parasites in her teeth (I have one cavity)....are you trying to say younger--he didn't fear it?...padding around in slippers (Dee)--something that has to be done....Rhyme--Goosebumps (cut off skin--flay someone alive)...and if it were all of us here....a nationwide conservation of resources (voice is gravelly and slow--some past (dead) president giving a speech--maybe FDR or all of them!....the sign "Planet, Terrible Planet" ....etch-a-sketch being shaken, size 40, Bill Gates end of story, you don't get it do you, since 1977....then they stormed blocks away (picture of a piece of paper in a verticle sorter on a desk)...you're gonna get better, for real (picture of someone's guts I'm inside of the abdomen and I brush off some dust maybe off the intestines--looks fine to me)....camel dung--Grace gives you anything but an ear....Mud Allah...Marty Barhaghi holding a white wood bathroom door shut saying, you can't play that, you have to play that....All punishing my daughter. another voice says, I had her, Sir.....one person, going out, after a fall of a nation...all these wars going on that they signed CAD (aides carrying the designs) for...I climb a barrior with someone trying to stop me at the top, throws me thing/dust down, knocks me down and I climb up again, then he embraces me--man in white robes. I find some lettuce in the frig, some old stuff (grandma's?) in an oatmeal box--buttons and buffalo nickels, old books, magazine articles. A man arrives and says my aunt is having terrible time getting money changed at the bank and I say, "laundering it?" but maybe she took it out and hid it under her mattress in fear of banks and now wants to put it back. Her two sons are living with her and one wants to run off. We have a lot of meat that others don't have. Anthrax germs in sacks like spider egg sacks. A shadowy man on a motorcycle rides through me and knocks me down. People hollow out pillows as barriors at my high school (so I won't dream about them?) Earlier a young girl and I were dressing our hair. I had a metal bowl full of white paste (like wedding cake frosting) and smear it in my hair on the bangs (like babies do). It dries and you brush it out. A hand reaches in and takes the rest of the white paste. I had covered all but the ends (split ends)--like the white paste Celts covered themselves with and made spikes in their hair (was aluminum I believe the Celts were mining, and tin for the Romans and Atlanteans per Harry Harrison).
Room, meeting of men on couch, down some stairs like a speakeasy club, man singing love song on radio, men behind me say women meet in another room, "JOY" on door. They are the 74 that keep the company profitable. Ask if I'm joining. No one looks old enough to retire. Boss walks up-Jerry from VA hospital (German or Irish). a dress, a man coming to kill me, police are busy, once you start writing that's it,
My sleeping causes a fight with dream animals. Other people will not be able to sleep anymore because of the fights they'd have. Animal words very similar: cow, hog, dog, sow, pig, hen, cat. Professionally and personally as a metal, a big flaw.
12/23/76 Someone called Imperator and got message -- I was standing on the toe of the mother of the Great White Brotherhood/ was standing on the toe of an elephant -- said "what a large foot." The elephant endured the pain and wanted her to get off. I move home, my room has one way mirror in door, but no lock. Also look for place to hide books - three ingenious bookshelves. Man has a round sort of crystal. Both of us say that if we'd had more time they would have been put together perfectly.
Funny horse, floppy ears lying in a pond of water -- cold, cold, cold. I urge it to get up. Then get view from greater distance --it's an elephant come here to die.
An egg sitting on a wall -- reaches for me -- saying, I try, try, try. Falls off wall. Someone coming down from San Francisco, seems like Darrell. At school, me student-- Sylvia has pile of pictures just like mine. Then go into next room and script is spread out -- folder open. Mom comes to take me somewhere to another lesson. Elephant ate rice and fell over. One person says something to another, then they do the same thing for another person. Chain reaction. Balancing of personalities in situations by exchanges of
reactions, emotions. J comes over and says she has three scripts, Rhodas, Rockfords -- I say they're hopeless, have to be completely re-written.
One guy is naked, cock very long like elephant trunk. "Barb" gets in backseat of our car -- says she would like to stay but will "go and melt." Then there are several people all talking about the length of that guy's cock, how old he is (can't tell).
Tang - gnat. Odd things. In library, girl steals my pen, I follow her -- find large pile of Rosicrucian initiations. Then I feel like staying -- find a book about angels in a drawer. Hear man talking, look over and two sitting on his lap. Shirley hides behind me - taking steps when I do. she is dressed in "funny looking" shorts and doesn't want the woman who is approaching to see her. I am dressed in my bikini. Go to woman's house as salesperson but just talk -- animals start appearing, lions. Mom says she was raped by an elephant in a previous life, because she's afraid of them. I'm afraid to go out but two men want to. Thesis written in 1953 by woman about language. At a lake with other people from my class -- doing water things. I decide to throw rocks -- Keith H does also -- into the water. Go back to school, my thesis isn't written (it's about dreaming). Suzanne has it. She is going into the boys' showers. Chocolate cake with catsup.
Stop at Salvation Army -- I give away my high wood heels, and when I go to get them back they are already gone. I come out with one shoe on left foot, a low sandal, and two gloves of different colors. Mom is driving down the road in the rain -- takes a turn too sloppy, she is nervous from not driving much. Windows are all fogged over. She runs off the road on a curve and almost tips the truck over, then reaches the field. Driving towards some place in Mom's green truck. Then a huge bull elephant is in the field we have to go through. The truck falls on its side. A man gets my brother out and we start to walk across the field. The bull elephant has a girlfriend somewhere. She gets out of her pen and comes around also. I remember that you must face the elephant even if he kills you, and start back. Maybe his legs are so long he'll go right over the top of the truck. A man is there where I'm going to climb the fence. Everywhere here has changed to winter, there's snow on the ground and the air is very cold. The man says that down the hill to the right where the country music is, it is green. Mom and my sister say that Spring is coming to the left. I look. The sun is pink down there -- but I continue with the man and someone holding my left hand. Everything is marble. Old lady's house, girl gets 1/3 of the space -- that's why so cheap. In New York, everyone lives in a cheap part -- we all go somewhere.
Grandma's bathroom, I think my sister has taken a bath but the water is so dirty my brother must have also; I look at it and fall in as I had feared. We go to Mom's house, my boyfriend camps far back in the hills, very beautiful grassy meadow with a stream and his coat for the tent. Bridge, construction men daring to walk on it--I'm trying to cross, fall off after holding on by my fingernails, into the river. Someone throws logs at me. Riding a pony into the forest; it jumps off a cliff into a pool of water. A mystery girl is there swimming nice; but turns unpleasant--people throwing things from the bank, coming back down hill--two rams keep me from escaping, other animals. I want to go down the hill on the dark side, but a voice says, "allright, but there are cannibals down there." The cannibals are Latin lovers. At the creek a baby elephant turns into a child; horse rolling in sand beyond the fence turns into a big elephant. I go to the house, bull cavorting around pretends to step on my fingers; I am afraid, threaten him and go into the house. Baby elephant falls off the cliff backwards and father very cocky, mother subdued--father keeps running down to creek during the meal. All I got was a little soda in a glass. Language almost had control of the writer.
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I go upstairs to dress. Dad and Grampa yell to come down. I stand up to them and Dad explains it's because the food is ready. I look out the window, twilight, a gorup of women and very tiny kids chasing animals down the road -- whipping furiously when any run back -- a piece of paper blows back. I pick it up -- it tells about something interesting happening at night. A race -- Sandy the engine pulling me on a skate or surfboard. there are three contenders - boy who got a late start catching up, go through lettered gates. I lose the skateboard and go through the "A" inches ahead of the next. There is a controversy whether they won or we did. They are still intact on their skateboard. Then the third group arrives, they win because they caught a fish. A very small white catfish about four inches long hooked through the gill. Shaped like a sunfish. The judge removes the hook, says, this is very important even though it hurt the fish -- got very big when he took it out. I am staying in a place -- several people in one bed -- man who refuses to type the first pages of theses, turns out to be Jerry. I say I'll do it, afraid he'll be violent. Three old men leave the bed. I'm taking care of a baby. ] I go into Jean's house, look at my stuffed elephant on shelf -- it says Milk QuarterlyChicago on one side, picture of trees on the other and picture of a man, woman and baby, naked with long brown hair on the thin side of the elephant. Two boys are taking baby -- it is dark. I fasten him in -- tell where gloves are. I have worked out the best way of doing these. Look in the eyes -- look in car headlights from back.
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A woman in the city attracts danger (picture of elephant and tiger) the way this elephant attracts this tiger and it is as far behind her as a tackle behind a football player (picture) and still she coaxes it on (picture of person holding a rope and holding out their
hand to something you can't see -- looks like something small, a dog in front of a cave) (picture of a horse with shining bursts of light on its body, head, heart, hips)
We go to store for electric blanket, then I decide two is enough. Man buys notebooks, male cashier says, "I wish I was fast."
We buy a single bed from Sally. The beds are made sloppy. She has zebra skin on door. With J and S look for boxes in warehouse. Old clothes, also black something for me. Close, I lie on bed with bag of candy Laeri gave me. O comes in with amphetamines. Dumdum -- pick lint off Jennifer. Gayle comes in and says not to yell at kids. One parent objects to Babar
the Elephant. Watch sunrise, swarm of birds, very beautiful.
3/28/87 I'm having the same dream again, so I'm relaxed - know exactly what will happen. My brother is about eight inches tall and hiding under a chair. A miniature horse runs in. Then a big horse comes in and I'm still not afraid because this is just a rerun. The horse just walks past me and the room seems to have the ghosts of animals from past dreams like the bull and the elephant, like shadows. Then my old orange cat comes in and the horse chases him towards me and the dream gets out of control again.
6/15/88 A "shower" that is chocolate milkshakes. I feel it pouring on my head from behind. Then it's vomit in my face and I can't breathe. Horses and elephants outside but I'm not afraid because a man is with me. I look at them out the window of my old room and one comes up and looks in, pushes on the house and tips it, breaks the window and starts to crawl in. We run out a fancy french door that is new and get in a van but the back is filled with a grill you have to sit on. The grill might be hot from cooking.
Then I have to get a very small elephant that swam across the river and then the elephant acts like it is going to buck me off. It gets to the store and the black guy who was leading the elephant turns out to be Gary Coleman. He lets me off at the door and puts the elephant with the carts in the cart rack. I go inside (Sears) and all the way to the back to the room where I worked as a maid in my last dream, so I turn around and go on where I left off. This is a man giving a lecture on how to sell mattresses. The mattresses are used but have new covers; since the mattresses are old and have shrunk, the covers are baggy and the salesman shows how to hold them so they will look good on a TV commercial. Then there's a long pole with a hook for opening cupboards up by the ceiling. The one I have is more like a grappling hook on a chain and I can't get it to work. Then I start to get a funny feeling about this "Sears" because they are unloading used clothes. Then someone asks me a question about my present job--John Crawford, the
supervisor, put a mesh thing like a cattle crossing in the hallway and people were falling through it. There was something about burning asphalt--he was burning them down there or something, like the Devil.
10/16/98 I walk somewhere down sidewalk, Beyond Baroque behind me. Fishing tackle box has supplies for writing convention and chain inside a plastic bag. A toy elephant touches me with trunk. Everyone eating vegetables, numbers on cards on tackle box. I'm tired and want to go home.
10/21/98 Animals, an elephant on a slide or hill. Tigers climbing up boards and swings. Then rhino on porch with baby. In the front yard are all kinds of big animals, even dinosaurs. The people chase them all away. They'll knock down the house. Lions with big mouths-different colors like cartoon animals. A baby in an oven; I take it out and the mother appears behind me. I ask if she wants to hold it and she says no. It has a strong neck already-feels like it's trying to sit up.
Certain time to put stuff on, go lions share, all the A's will be left when the B's are gone, elephants-guns in case they go berserk, lifetime of starvation,
6/28/99 FRAP-what is it? College overbooked. Kids in carseats. I'm working, it's June 27 or 28 in dream; the date is in a bucket; I've almost finished something or am good at it from practice. Someone guides me around. There are two elephants in a cage; one says it was supposed to teach the other one, which was angry. I think the teacher may have learned anger from the student. It's far away so I run for the fence, horse. It's a hairy elephant. It's smart, will be able to get inside house when someone opens the door-will run through. I can't take my job anymore and quit, then have to go back because I have 2 more years. The regulations to fill are famous women of the Air Force. I have very fancy high heel thongs and other pretty shoes. My skirt has a slit. Outdoors it looks like Van Meter High School; a koala is out there-women are playing with it. I walk over where I can see around the building to playground. Something about a receipt Bernie asks if I have. I'm looking at some things to buy but they're all sold. They need you/he didn't hear/he had indeed heard you/ the library. Date decorates and shows off the clothes; Dixie and Nancy Gibson. A bare tree, a woman like a lion-front two paws like shell game covering something; letter from insurance company-Tarzanville. Daniel Freeman Hospital-marble floor, dancing-filthy, fraud and focus. Up on roof; milk in a water ball. Sharp sticks, can't chase people with clubs; why not?
11/23/01 Star [Pride, splendid revelations of the future] 2AM Pictures of: 1. man driving a jeep
slides down a rocky hillside off the road--he was trying to turn around. 2. a woman quietly
enters a dark room and lies down in bed--on the other half of the bed are animals like
elephants--a pile of them.
7/25/00 Woman singing while looking through hanging vines. Elephants
living in creek; I didn't tell anyone. They're almost out of food and also
a dam to hold the water -- I need to mix some concrete to make a dam. Also
horses mixed with them. Indian girls are riding two horse behind me. An
elephant runs beside me back to the fence. A story about how they dug up
the red sandstone -- they were hungry, covered with red dust. They are in
the cow lot at Dad's, behind the gate. They slide down a steep hill in cake
pans. Frilly toothpicks -- girls fix turkey and cheese cold cut sandwiches.
A man gives a speech from Dad's hoglot, next door to the cowlot, about
buying real estate -- he bought the room he's talking in, then his office,
then a lake area. He's going to flee -- debts needs his gun (asks if
anyone has seen it). Elephant runs to the fence also, horses on the other
side -- some get in, I pet it, ride horse. "She told me an expert in 2 1/2
years." "I think when you have power you bluff; never noticed it before."
Shaman's dead -- elephants come back at the death of someone. Horses get
in lime deposit - hill to climb. Elephants get lime deposits in eyes
(blue). Must shake up horses; they're in water. Playing footsie. A house,
pig shed. Has three glass walls/windows and the fourth side is open for air
or plastic. ... An old house, moving out, all that's left is junk. The
house was very nice but is empty now. Planning next life, college part
only. A beautiful high rise on the ocean called Walden Towers -- very
crowded with successful but distant people coming out the entrance doors. I
don't even go inside. Turn around and go back to the empty house -- man
there -- he tells me his plans and leaves. I have a room in an old woman's
house, dorm rooms -- not the nice apartment I wanted. ... Gun with glass
barrel, tube running through it -- shoots blanks. Shoots on the third or
fourth click -- into the air.
On cloud 13 last week, is keeping someone alive stupid.
Remember how you ran, fountains in the park. Elephant at Second Hand Rose
-- pushed out shop door, two other segments also. Library, I look at books
about Hindu marriage--statues of elephant god. Little girl is upset because
she sees three pigeon feathers and she ends up falling in a pool of water
with a thin layer of dust on top that makes it look like solid land.
10/5/00 Bright light on ground (point of light) under Japanese tree.
Parking the elephant, back it in. Continually looking down the fence. Iron
balls, cannon balls. Same pattern every time you go through that door.
Teenaged girl goes to Dodger game, I tell her beach the next day; too cold
to swim.
2/7/00 Form due--no major changes--this report says there's nothing of
something. An old Russian woman has to make the report too, official
looking form--takes a lot of computer memory to do them for a lot of people.
Hill at the school, the corner at the edge of the school grounds--a boy up
there, girl with baby carriage says she talks to herself since she had the
baby. My purse is a clear plastic make-up one; empty, fell in water in the
fountain. My password is twotooto. Two litters of puppies, different
sizes. Smaller dog has 4 puppies; bigger dog 2 or 4; looks like a mop or
miniature Afghan; about 6 inches tall. John and Lito, I tell them they'll
have to get someone to pass the physical for them if they are recalled for
Army duty (they think), but I say they lift computers all day and work out.
In a large building, going up to my office; there are large animals in one
hallway--elephants and I'm afraid to pass them. I go down a different
hallway and there are more at another intersection of halls. So I go up to
the 2nd floor and look over a railing to scout the situation out. The ones
on the 1st floor can even climb up on the furniture and beams and reach up
to the ceiling and up where I am. They're in piles like sleeping baby mice,
shadowy--very shiny black in some places, have trunks maybe. A woman has a
plan to flood her office in May. There are clothes in the alcove with the
railing; I'm not dressed yet either or lost my clothes in fear. I peer
down at them and try to work up my nerve to walk through the maze of
hallways past them. I hide my three stuffed dogs from his kids, but in
the dream they are stuffed elephants.
1/14/01 Page of cups. electric shock -- you can learn that way.
My new room at dorm, I have two, very small, cement block. Walls are blue
and carpet is blue, same color of blue -- glitter and confetti and ribbons
on window sills. I put a large picture on the floor, mattress, then very
tall bed. Small wooden box of office supplies, has an area for tools with
round bottoms, large hole, three smaller ones. Girl cleaning her room
asks if she can be in charge of health instead. I tell her cleaning the
chairs and tables will improve health -- where people touch. She has a
lot of laundry. I'm in charge of love. I go to help a boy in a valley.
A whole herd of cattle in the valley -- very small. I ask if they're
elephants. General and his army. Don't write words, your mother answers
-- send pictures. If you don't save it, you're not comfortable and you're
not free. Green flannel skirt, full on dress. The girl is more settled.
I turn over an elephant foot umbrella stand, it has no bottom. Picture of bison
galloping across prairie, dust flying. Moving very fast, medium sized,
gallops into the ground or falls into a hole.
Picture of a hospital, one patient or visitor checks
another patient's feet. Their feet seem frozen, wrapped in rags. German hospital. Forest fire
coming up to a river bank -- elephants running along the bank (trying to save people).
8/6/01 7 of swords/futility (taking the easy way out; instead of taking
responsibility and confronting others with theirs) 1030 PM "Not mine, her
bracelet." "Sat in Congress adapting." I read an email in a dream -- "I
enjoy seeing your political..." then I wake up. 2 AM A shadowy man drives
me down a dirt lane that has overgrown with grass, looks like a lawn,
because no one has driven on it for so long. I think the man is dad and I'm
18 and leaving . It is muddy, a little standing water but he doesn't get
stuck. He says, "they needed some energy." There's a flimsy fence -- and I
throw a small $3 slice of hay. There is a whole herd of very unusual black
cattle with unusual skin, no fur. They are shadowy too but could be baby
rabbits/rodents/badgers/pigs/very small elephants without trunks, maybe.
Maybe they are dead -- dead people have no hair. The bull is right in the
center of the herd and he gets the hay to eat first I notice (like the cat
family). Then the bull goes to ridiculous extremes--put the piece of hay
under his 10 gallon water tub and is standing on top of it with all four
feet bunched up (like elephant in a circus) I assume so that the other cows
can't eat any. The man says the fence is very flimsy so there is no use
running away, so I go towards the bull and shoo him off the water tub; and
am embarrassed to be so scared that I yell, "daddy" and cover my eyes. Then
I notice a red bull and I think the two bulls will fight, but they just look
at each other and then they stare intently at me and then I'm afraid they'll
follow me like they usually do, and they start towards me. I hide in the
cornfield and the red bull charges down the row I'm on and I step through
into the next row right before he gets to me, like a matador. I have the
water pan and I get underneath it to hide (barely fit, must painfully bend
my head down) and I can hear them talking around me -- sounds like Bett.
There is also a box there -- about 2 feet tall. [The water tub is the one
the real bull had when I was a kid and he's shit in it and make dad mad.]
Pictures of different school classes -- ghosts in pictures and clouds around
the kids and they have their hands up over their faces. An elephant walks
up on his back legs and wants to hug me but I'm afraid his trunk in the way
will make his legs too short and he'll crush me. Aussie voice, "if you
reflect the right movement." "People are beginning to laugh and get
concerned about that" -- peeling ear of corn. Some product that is going to
make me younger and thinner -- sold in New York. "My Lord," voice says --
when I gather up a handful of bullshit to throw at someone. Magic Johnson
has some poems in the internet. Woman hanging off the top of a flagpole.
Woman blowing up the house says, "true, I bought some explosives." Mom
maybe, an Irish thing? "Body temp went down to 43 -- breaks you heart
because it is frozen and brittle. "Have fun sweetie," he called me that
before he left. Voice, "stick it out." Black bull is giving money to
Catholic school -- going to cause a big stink. Authorities never won in
Arkansas. "Don't break apart real easy when
Is an elephant, not a bull - - China. "Give up grooming for... (sex) -- leave till the end."
Then I pass an open doorway and George Bush, an older supervisor calls me in there and tells me to sign out some supplies for
office and personal for him. I follow him around the room, curious--it looks like the memorabilia at the Hoover Library. There are a lot of carved animals--especially green elephants; plastic horses like kid farm animal toys; small plastic dinosaurs in a box of which he is contemptuous; and then he exclaims--"look at this!" and it is dinosaur skin which is soft like leather and very thick with a porous white layer above (big holes in it) and a more solid greenish brown layer below. It is about 3/8 inch thick and in a big piece like a chamois skin.
Walking around, see demonstration of boulder falling, first speculate which way -- then it actually falls, but bounces around all the
way up a cliff then down into a valley. In the valley are a woman and boy -- the boulder becomes a giant blond snake which reaches down and eats a rabbit, then scoops five owls out of the air (guide says maybe he'll give them to us). Then opens mouth wide and eats a flock of birds. Snake becomes larger and larger, then birds begin flying out the other end -- snake becomes a large tube.
I smell something dead, go on and it's a red dog with a snarl on its face -- some other animal eating it. At Mom's -- early morning, I get up and go down long driveway to the road. Hear heavy breathing -- which turns out to be a bear. Starts out as bull, black, comes at me. I yell at it, run and get on fence. He says, "won't do any good" - he can climb through -- he does so. I laugh
a little. Run to house, scared. Bear follows, says we killed its children and never gave it Christmas presents. Man goes out -- clothes bunched up on head. Get out guns. Then bear is crying outside Shirley's window. I suggest gifts -- hamburger, frozen chicken. It walks around house and I close curtains, put blue blankets over windows so it can't see in.
Dumdum daycare -- I yell at people for all working at the same time, little kid like duck beside me. There is an ape man on the loose -- a gorilla with very shiny black fur and a smooth shiny black face. He kills a woman. Then there is a man walking by a beautiful river with tall grass on the bank and the gorilla. Puts out his arm and grabs him. the man shoots, but he gorilla kills him and rips him apart. Sherlock Holmes and Doctor Watson come along an say, "oh, my, how terrible." The gorilla's head is sitting to one side sliced horizontally into three slices. There is also a grapefruit sliced the same way but only the flat center slice is there. Sherlock says, "if only we could find the other piece." He looks at the dead man -- whose fingers point to an over-grown trail to the piece of grapefruit. He gets it -- Watson finds one at the same time. The gorilla appears at the other end of the trail -- coming back to eat more. Sherlock and Dr. Watson run fast but weird, leaning back and lifting their feet up high. The gorilla is right behind them. Dr. W says, "that guy shot him." Sherlock, "but he only had time to shoot straight, LBJ would have stuck the gun in his mouth and shot up." They come out into a clear place and jump aside and a man with a gun shoots a man and a gorilla with one bullet. He holds the gorilla's hand while it's dying. Then Dr. W and Sherlock are alone on a road made of small red tiles which leads into a circular clearing, like an amphitheatre. Sherlock says, "not many people know about this place, so it's overgrown and fertile."
A race--prophecy at an alter or snowbank; the race is inside. The house is a maze, there are many doors--no closets or you take your chance; the important doors are in the floor. I run right to them--others follow; last door is an otter slide and there is no closing the door (concrete). Gorilla guards treasure, chase through maze, I have to keep moving. I trick the gorilla when caught--gives me a prize (red chiffon), but I don't know it. I eavesdrop and the gorilla gets fed up and is going to shoot me with an arrow;
shoots ceiling instead. Finally, war; I jump in to get prize--we were there all along and others are there to help me out.
4/27/00 Starting place - some charts for something that got deleted. They were about healing or dogs. I'm anxious. Eight is deleted also. Numbers - six of them. One is two digit. People take their place - a row of people. They won't make any exceptions. A project where you have to recreate a photo. Things in photo - saddles on ground, office supplies, stuffed otter
and sheep (curly). One woman dressed in layers of black.
We're living in a shack by my mother's lane, broken window in door, hunters going towards river, dog jumps in window, grabs my wrist, man comes -- give him a lecture about dogs. Mom had a son but her husband and his father took him away in their Cadillac (said she was unfit). Later she had a daughter. We drive down a street and traffic is very fast and close. A car with a boat passes within inches. Three women (including me) do something and a man puts sugary cereal on the ground by us so ants will come and get up. The other two women just sit there resigned and I brush the ants off them. None, or few get on me. A big dog. My sister decides to lock it up -- I help her -- behind a split refrigerator door, the bottom door. We hold it awhile against the dog -- door bowed out -- then sneak away. I walk on my knees because my shoes are loud. We are going to sleep in the car where the dog can't get us but when we get there, it has a blanket for a roof. I'm getting dressed in a mirror
A big rat in my bedroom -- came out to eat. I run and get everyone. Mom brings a pistol, my sister loads it. I use the broom to keep it there, whirling the broom in its face to hypnotize it and make it very tame -- some says it works like an orgasm. I take out the clip as well as three bullets already in the cylinders to unload the gun. I steal Cindy's (Nathan/1 year old's mom) car and go to a drive-in.
I'm the go between Nixon and the new president. Nixon is a new man -- says no to nuclear energy. I illustrate a statement by a man with a tractor and a man with a gun. I drive green truck -- too close to black sports car with red interior, ask man "who's the driver?" I am writing letters. I'm the driver. Slow down, keep pulling off the road to re-establish my reliability. Guy who says his lips rusted. Beattles fucking their way to the top, large and small caps. Dress with sequins, blouse made of blue net.
Two guys, one blond who are playing their instruments at church. They play them very loud, jazzed up. The blond guy is particularly manic, comes and plays right by my head - something comes down to surround me. People are upset and decide to vote whether or not to kick them out -- I vote no, man votes yes. They ask the guy beside me -- I turn and it is Nixon and he has both arms raised. Two theses come in whose covers are exactly alike, but not titles. Mine is about kids grabbing a purple flower (carnation), turns to fish -- grabbing it in tank in back of truck, turns to young boy.
Stove that keeps snow melted. Darrell and Allan here, Allan wants to take our car and drive around -- I say he'll get lost. Go to Skelley Truckstop on Interstate 80 in Iowa City -- Nixon there campaigning for president, something about whales.
9/12/74 Norbert (VA Hospital) is the president, Mr. King, the Jr High coach is Vice-President. Waiting to go on trip at Norb's/other guy changes when president. Painted furniture, candy in every room. Walking along a sidewalk -- garbage cans of rice in one house. At times like these. Motion, emotion. I feel like a flower opening in a movie -- a movie that hasn't been speeded up. A girl with celery hair. I've waited and waited and waited, how can I turn my back now. Jackie O returns angry to the White House. Pat Nixon waits nervously smoking. Man alone in a business building at night crying and walking with his arms around two hippies, in morning others will arrive. Man removing carpets, upsetting the man in the middle. It will be all over soon, they'll never do it again. Woman just watches -- enjoys this sort of thing.
Go to "concert" and end up playing softball. Curtain with small crack between us and batter -- ball comes through. Newspaper -- scientists at San Jose combine nuclear Nixon - nuclear energy. The Russians make + or - shirts with words n front too. Government will kill off all tall blond people so all will be short. Car with feet for wheels. Cut throat with alkaline. Man and I have sex until 6, then he jacks off -- confusion. A group of people -- killed a woman. I end up lying in a casket; I'm a 30 year old man. A house with three TVs, Church -- bank in front. Buy tea in grocery store. Woman who is 66, looks 25 -- mother-in-law, fed kids
artichokes for snacks.
2/16/00 I'm with a family of daughter(s) and again have to pick something up. I pass a cardstore where the cards have pictures of
hats. Woman dressed in green jacket and white skirt passes, very thin. Then one with a gray or silver make-up like a robot, and maybe silvery or white chiffon dress. Voice, "that looks very nice." Then I look around a museum store; UFO statues but with heads sticking out the top of the uniform capture smaller UFO beings as they fly past. Another room where Nixon has come in behind me; I look for his shoes on the floor--voice says if they were there they would have hit him in the head. They are thongs.
5/29/01 10 of cups. 10:30 PM "Waite book shows every card. Golden Dawn." You changed your mind. 1789. Always there were stars. Water in Manhattan Beach streets. Man (retired Navy) wears a hat like Christopher Walken in the Communion movie. He's got his pant legs tied down at the thigh level on both legs or maybe chaps. Linda and I talk at dinner but the men just sit there except to say, "I feel quite sick" -- maybe not having long to live. I follow him back to the office, where we both work and he walks through the secretarial pool greeting two women who look up at him. They sit directly behind each other. The combination on the door is 754. It's raining. Then we're leaving, the trunk of the Jag is packed and some men kidnap the occupants and let the Jag drive off by itself and crash. I follow it and it drives into dense forest and crashes into a huge fallen tree or rock. The trunk opens and a wheelchair falls out. Voice, "she was looking frantically for one of them." Then a six pack of Slim Fast starts to fall off a stack of six packs. It is "walking" to the edge and falls off and says, "oh, great, I wonder how long someone's going to leave me here sitting on my butt." I can't picture where a six pack's butt would be located -- probably the bottoms of the cans, but am still amazed that it talked. Voice, "here comes someone." Some men ride up on horses and set up a grill and wood and charcoal from the Jag's trunk to cook their two trout they just caught in the lake beyond the rock. By nightfall they're singing about red wine -- good quality, in the other six packs under the Slim Fast. I wonder if they are even going to report the wreck to authorities. I go back to civilization and walk through the long building after dressing in jeans with the other women. I go into the bedroom where the spouse from the beginning of the dream is lying on a bed with a wood frame (must be waterbed). He wakes up and begins telling me about all the lobster and shrimp at the dining room. Looks like a luxury cruise ship. He'll live in a luxury jail. Forget it and pack it up and come home. Swimming in a foggy lake, night. Man in trousers smoking on shore. An old notebook. Voice, "it's October 19th and they're doing what I want. Too cold." (I got up and shut the window.) Tarot cards laid out. I see the Nixon card with words on the bottom of it "master of none." Thinking about how many times I wake up per night. Picture and voice, "last year the pope drank poison soda. Some other man sat and did nothing all year." Sopranos to be executed (firing squad). [Malcolm X was executed by three men in the front row that stood up together and fired rifles and shotguns and pistols -- looked like a firing squad a reporter said. He was looking at a disturbance a few rows back where a man yelled, get your hand out of my pocket, and might not have known what hit him. He was preparing to give a speech with
an apology to the Nation of Islam, that the things that had happened to him were too big and couldn't have been done by them.]
2/19/00 There are more than one (2) of every animal except God. Rich couple have tour of their house. In the 1st room kids are eating and going to sleep. Have to take off your clothes to go in. Bedrooms, storage rooms and closets. Then a huge room full of books with a slanted walk on both sides--some maintenance area behind the facade at a mall. Slices of bread at the top to attract mice--Star Wars characters have guns they can shoot at them, one shoots bread slices (libraries smell like mice). Some separate rooms for special collections.
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